and I would love to sleep right through it! I think I did way too much this whole past week and now I’m paying for it because I’m extremely tired. Being withOUT a car means lots of walking and traveling isn’t as easy, so that’s one. Two, I still don’t think I’m used to juggling two kids. I guess I was so used to having one that sometimes I still think it’s still like that. For example, I hosted a party and thought it would be completely easy to set everything up, get things started, have everything be presentable, bla bla bla.. I was WRONG! Like, did I forget I have a 7 month old? Babies have some sort of radar. If they sense any type of nervousness or stress of having to get something done off their mothers, oh ya, that’s their time to BUG OUT. A was soo cranky  and it just made everything so much more harder. Well, lesson learned. . Either don’t throw parties or have someone watch him. Which by the way, someone did watch him after all ! My little sister came to my rescue . . Thank God!
Okay, so yea, the weekend is here! Wooo.
Not doing much today.  .probably going to do some cleaning and then R has a birthday party later this afternoon, which means I will be there as well. Don’t you love this age?! You get to attend preschool parties, how fun. It’s going to make them getting older and just being able to drop them off, all the MORE worth it!
Sunday, I’m planning on going to the beach. We’ll see!
R can’t wait. So hopefully, we actually stick to it. My hub is working all weekend. Overtime is great, but eh, we miss him. Waa. Anyway, enjoy your weekend! Hopefully I’ll enjoy mine.

I am so bad at making time for buying thank you cards, writing out thank you cards, and of course mailing them out so they actually get to the person I’m thanking. Something about thank you cards annoys me.
You gave me a gift. I thanked you at the party. I probably thanked you again when I spoke to you days after the party. Now, I have to make time to write you a thank you card, just to thank you one more time. Then there’s this time frame on thank you cards. Like, you must write them as soon as the party is over and make sure they are delivered within a week of whatever it is that occurred that you’re thanking someone for.
No. You’ll get a thank you card in the mail whenever I have time to to finish them and mail them out. I’m not on some deadline because people are obsessed with being thanked even though they’ve already been thanked. It’s so ridiculous to me.
I no longer do thank you cards for my sons small birthday parties, because it is just a waste of paper, a waste of stamps, and a waste of my precious time. There’s always present time at a toddler or preschoolers birthday. So everyone sees the gift, you get thanked on the spot. . So please explain why a thank you card would be necessary in a situation like that? I am thanking you for the gigantic dinosaur you gave my son, even though I thanked you for it at the party. Yes, I understand you must see it in writing. Did you not believe it when it was coming out of my mouth?
For other occasions where envelopes filled with cash are handed to you, of course thank you cards should probably be written . . whatever, can’t I just email a thank you card? Didn’t I thank you enough?
Apparently, not.
And then you get the people who ask if you wrote out thank you cards. MY MIL is infamous for that. Oh, yea sure you’re so proper because you get thank you cards out earlier than I do. Haaaa, I won’t go there.
People are obsessed with being thanked multiple times so I will have to take the time out to finally feed their obsession by finally writing out thank you cards for the guests that attended my son’s christening which was… errr… 19 days ago.
Ugh, damn doing the right thing!

Haven’t been posting much.
Busy with the kids.. Trying to get things under control with school, and I’ve been having horrible headaches. Anyway, just in case you didn’t already know. REGISTER FOR CLASSES EARLY! Everything is full, how depressing. I have to make an appointment at my college for an advising workshop. Do they ever squeeze you in if you need a class thats full? Ha, doubt it. I’ll give it a try.
My head is pounding.

 My mother in law made this cake over the weekend. . It was amazing! Try it out.

Pistachio Cake

quick update:

I managed to lose 3 pounds in one week. YAY. I am proud of myself. The past week went something like this: I ate in moderation, exercised, walked A LOT, drank lots of water and really was working hard towards my goal. I can’t say the same about the weekend. Overate like a pig!! I’ve been overeating since Saturday. It’s like once you start, you can’t stop. I’m really suprised I lost 3 pounds.
I’m hoping to get back on track tomorrow.

I love my boys. They are the greatest human beings I have ever been in contact with. LOL. They’re funny, and adorable, energetic and have such great personalities at such young ages. I wouldn’t trade my boys for anything and when people ask, if I had wanted a girl the second time around, I get pissed. Like, hello! He’s here! He’s a boy. I’m over it and why would I say I wanted a girl. Of course I wanted a girl, but does it matter now. He’s not a girl, he’s a boy and I love him. He’s A and he’s great.
No matter how much I love them and how happy I am to have two sons. . Two sons that will be brothers to eachother and share a bond like no other, I still wonder if I’ll ever have my girl. Of course, it crosses my mind. The feeling is weird. I don’t want to have anymore kids. Why? They’re expensive, it’s a lot of work, I have to finish school, and most of all, I am so happy with JUST THEM. I do feel complete, but then at other times, I’m like WOW. I’m not going to have a girl!?! I am not going to have a girl!?!
Lets be honest, once boys get older, go off to college, get married, things aren’t the same. With girls, it’s different. Mother- Daughter relationships are like no other. I talk to my mom on the phone more times than I can count. I see her all the time and most girls I know, have the same relationship with their moms.
It’s a little overwhelming sometimes to think, who will I go shopping with? get my nails done with? who will I talk to on the phone everyday of my life?
I have to have a daughter.
But is it fair to want a person just to fill a part in your life? Like what am I, a casting director. If it happens, it happens. If not, then not. But, it’s hard to think about sometimes. I want to dress a girl up and buy barbie dolls, go to recitals and have a mom- daughter relationship. I think about trying for that girl, but feel my chances of ending up with 3 boys would be greater and it’s not a chance I want to take. Do I seriously want to sacrifice my body once again to have 3 boys?!
Three boys pissing all over the place in the bathroom, God no.

Ahh. Summer begins tonight, but it’s been pretty warm for awhile. I love the Summer. Wish life was like this year round. Got the boys ready yesterday and we went walking then we went to the park to meet up with a friend of mine and her two boys. The ability to just hang out for hours on a bench and enjoy the weather and the people you are with is what I love most about the Summer. Well, I love the beach more, but who knows when I’ll actually be able to go. Gas prices average around $4.32 cents a gallon around here and I’m not willing to pay.
My allergies are killing me. I’d like to just rip my face off. Anyway, It’s a little after 6 in the morning and I’m just thinking about what it is we’re going to do today. Probably go to the pool.
I missed Barack Obama’s babymomma wife on the View.. MIght just go check it out on youtube. I heard she was great, and a lot of people liked her demeanor. I wonder why we get so hung up on the wives of presidential candidates? It feels something like, “uh, no, that bitch isn’t going to be FIRST LADY!”. Haha. Then when you like them, “See, she deserves to be first lady”. I honestly don’t like neither of them. Obama’s babymomma wife or Mrs. McCain. They’re definitely no Hillary. . Definitely not Mrs. Bush. I never really listened to them or really took the time to figure out what they’re about, so maybe I shouldn’t say that.
I need a table in the yard. Probably will google that in a bit.
Off to do whatever today, just go out and enjoy the weather..

It has reached a point where I have to stop living in the moment and finally stop and think about the future. My OUR debt has reached a staggering $10,000.
What was bought with that money, I don’t know.
Our Savings is pathetic.
Oh and,
We over spend.

I am not good with money. Not good with numbers and definitely not good with budgeting.
But it’s all become too much. I’m having a hard time sleeping because of all this. I’m no expert on budgets, and we should probably set up with a financial adviser because my husband and I both have not a clue.

• My first step was to cut my cards. DONE.
• Next I am starting to put more money into savings even though we are in debt.
  I think it’s important to always save no matter what.
• Cash only. If I don’t have Cash then that means NO SPENDING. What is wrong with me? Why couldn’t I come up with that a long time ago.
• Setting up a little pool in the yard and a table. I can not be traveling here and there for playdates, meetups, outings and everything that requires money if I’m serious about getting out of debt and saving for a down payment on a house.

Do you have any advice? Now if only I can get my husband on the same page as I am. He is the type of person that believes he is good with money but in all actuality IS NOT.
He’s terrible, to be truly honest. Well I definitely feel stressed, but it’s just something I have to fix.
The stress has just hit a ridiculous level.
I mean headaches, chest pains, loss of sleep for what!?!? Way too many starbucks frappuccinos.
Oh, how depressing. .

Whenever I need someone to babysit in the AM which is rare, I feel extremely grateful that I can stay home with my kids. I can’t stand leaving my kids in the morning. Mostly because if a routine is broken in the morning, it can seriously ruin the rest of the day. Mims ( my 16 year old sister) is watching the kids for me while moomoo(my 20y.o sis) and I drive into BKYLN for her court hearing.
I’m such a control freak about my mornings and went a little post it crazy, leaving my sister a lot of “to do’s” to keep the morning routine going.
I’m grateful that I can stay home because I couldn’t see myself leaving them in the mornings for someone else to watch them. I would just be a wreck, and annoying too. I wish I could see my sisters face when she sees all the post its. I’ll hop in the car and probably get a phone call or text message with her either saying or texting what a nut I am.
For once, I am sympathizing with working mothers.
It’s a lot of work to prepare and try to make it as easy as can be for someone to fill in your shoes.

Cuties enjoying the day hanging by the pool, and not so much in the pool.
Wasn’t the warmest day, but they had fun anyway. It was kind of windy and cool, but staying in wasn’t something I was in the mood for today. Sometimes, it’s best for everyone to get up and out of the house.