yikes…

i suck!! I haven’t blogged since january… wow.

 

O mah GAWD.

I’m in love.
I just got a blackberry.
I’m in love.

 

The Missing Mitten.

I feel bad that I yelled at R before we took off for school, but every morning, it’s the same scenario. . . The case of the missing mitten! God damn! I need to go all drill Sargent on these kids.
You see those crazy, strict, make you write an essay if you don’t follow the rules- parents on wife swap? I need to take a tip or two from them! R will be 5 in Feb and basically his responsibilities consist of :

*Putting his scarf, hat and gloves away when we get home.
*Cleaning up his mess.

I don’t think that’s bad at all! There are kids running a farm with their parents. If  all I ask, is to not lose a damn mitten, why must one of his mittens go missing every single morning?
He blamed his little bro. What else is the kid supposed to do? UMMM, not lose his f*cking mitten every single day.  I’m thinking of creating a reward chart and adding some responsibilities to his list. . We’ll see how it goes, haha.

Oh, and then there’s clean up time. Clean up time was so much fun when we could have the Barney song playing, and he thought he was saving the world by straightening up the living room, now it’s just an excuse for his attitude!

“R, Mommy is giving you 10 minutes to get this mess cleaned up, if you don’t clean it, you’re going to the thinking chair”.

“Okay, I’ll go in the thinking chair right now. I want to think.”

AY. What’s worse is that I wanted to laugh. I need to learn that he’s going to be 5 and talking back and saying quirky things is not CUTE ANYMORE. It’s rude and disrespectful. WHATEVER!

 

Blogging is not like writing in your diary. . .

and you know it!
If I were to sit here and give you the real deal, when it comes to all my thoughts,  it would be completely inappropriate. I’m sometimes baffled with the world of blogging. Writing, typing and putting it all out there is supposed to be therapeutic, right? How therapeutic can it be if your thoughts are even edited? We have boundaries and choose not to put it all out there. Trust me, I wish I could go on and on about what is really going on, but that would just be like digging a 6ft hole for myself, so I choose not to.
Whatever I say isn’t a lie, don’t get me wrong, but there are some things that go completely unmentioned. . . like ******* and ******* and how I feel about my ***. You get it, right? 

Do any of you put it all out there? You know what I mean. . ALL OUT THERE.

 

So, he wants to bowl.

I’m a firm believer of the saying, “The apple never falls far from the tree”. It doesn’t fall far.. It’s close.. whatever the exact words are, you get what I’m saying.
Sometimes, no matter how much you believe it, it’s still a bit hard to accept.
I want my almost 5 year old son to be well rounded. I feel like children should be exposed to different things, learn new things constantly, and get a taste of everything that life has to offer. I took my son to the theatre for his first time yesterday. It went OK. What can I say? The boy doesn’t dig the theatre. Can I expect anything else? I mean, take a look at my husband. Here’s a man who lives and breathes the New York Yankees as if it’s the greatest hobby in the world. Back to my son, he didn’t enjoy the show at all. What can I do? I tried. Next time, I promised him, we’ll go bowling. He couldn’t have been happier. Why do I care so much then? Maybe, I get scared of how very close that apple will fall to the tree. Sure, bowling and sports are great. BUT, what about reading, thinking, writing, museums, the theatre? I couldn’t have possibly gave birth to a son that will be exactly like his father, or did I? Only time will tell, but I will tell you this, with each beg to leave the show; I couldn’t believe how much of my husband’s personality I saw pouring out of my little 4.5 year old’s face. It was adorable;-)

 

I’m not pinching pennies.

With the start of the new year, I decided to do things a bit differently. I am breaking the rules and going against everything “we should be doing”.  I’m not pinching pennies.  I want to shout it to the world, “I am NOT PINCHING PENNIES”.
Okay, maybe for a week or two, but whatever.
I’m not starting this new year with the mentality to save extra money, cut back on activities, never eat out, never get ourselves something nice to wear, or take a vacation because we are too broke.  I’m sorry, it’s nonsense. OF course, we’ll SAVE some money, but I’m so sick of not being able to enjoy life due to a strict budget.  Am I going crazy spending money?  NO.  We’re just spending a few bucks here and there and enjoying ourselves.  I am not regretting it one bit.  So, there!
For example: yesterday, R and I had our special day where I took him to the theatre and we had pizza afterwards. Okay, so if I hadn’t brought him, I could have saved a total of $40.  In my mind, the experience outweighed the measly $40. I have great pictures, he loved spending time with mommy (all by himself), and it was overall very much worth it.
Am I telling you to forget Suze Orman?
No, but I am telling you that she’s unrealistic.
I don’t know….. maybe I’m too young to grasp the importance of saving?
I just feel like it’s so much work, and we spend our time completely miserable when we can’t do anything and feel so broke, so why not have a little fun?
For the last few years, we have spent our tax return on paying down debt. I’m so sick of it. Why can’t we go away this year?  We’re doing it and you can tell Suze
Turks & Caicos, here some broke asses from NY come!
OF course, I dream about owning a house and bla bla bla.
In all reality though,  at this point, it’s very unrealistic.
We’re a young couple in NY.
We’re living on one income.
We pay almost $1800 a month just to live here (not including phone, cable, cell etc.)
So screw it! I’m not too worried about that house, anymore.
All I want is for my family and I to thoroughly enjoy ourselves.
I signed up R for some after school activities, we have been eating out once a week, I’m taking the kids to more events where they can have fun, and we’re taking a trip to the Catskills next month.
Can we afford it?
Do I care?
I’m not going to die one of those people. . you know, they leave their children hundreds of thousands, but never once in their entire life enjoyed themselves..
Negative.

 

when will the snow stop?

You know if one thing is for sure, it is the fact that I will not be able to live in NY as I grow older.
I’m colddddddddddddddddd!!!!!!!! Damn it!
These winters are brutal. You have no fucking clue. It’s annoying. The kids are bored. OF course, we get out, but I end up spending $$$$$. Free events my ass, nothing in life is FREE! Especially not in NY.
I am so cold. It’s out of controlllll.
On a more positive note, check me and the boys out!

 

Bangs!

In an attempt to update you on everything possible, I thought it would be best to mention that I now have bangs! Check, Check it out.

 

Very therapeutic ( chopping them off, that is).
Very Uneven

 

BIG LOVE

I am super excited about BIG LOVE tonight!

It has been forever and a day!
I will post my thoughts after the show. polygamy polygamists

Are you excited?
Are you for or against Big Love?

 

It has been awhile.

Wow. I didn’t realize that I haven’t checked in since after the election.
How bizarre that I would finally update 2 days before the inauguration. I’m such a cornball, but truly, that’s weird. I’m going to try to update as much as possible, especially since a lot has been going on lately.

I’ll update soon. I promise. No. . really, in a couple of hours.
I would update right now, but you know, I hate typing about a bunch of different things that don’t pertain to the title!